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Time is a great healer

  Remember when you'd go away

  To look after your Dad?

  The first few days were strange, but hey -

  It wasn't always bad!

  It actually felt sort of free

  To stay up 'til 2.30

  To have the whole bed just for me

  And leave the dishes dirty!

  But I'm not made to be alone -

  A short time passed, and then

  I'd yearn for you to come back home

  To make me whole again.

  And every day we spent apart

  That feeling grew and grew -

  I couldn't wait for you, dear heart

  I couldn't wait for you.

  So wonderful, the days you came

  To be back at my side!

  So different, yet so much the same

  This feeling now you've died.

  I know (of course!) I'll never hear

  Your key in our front lock,

  But I can't stop one hopeful ear

  From listening round the clock.

  And though (of course!) my head accepts

  That I won't see your face,

  My foolish body still expects

  Your loving, warm embrace.

  It's been quite long enough now

  Since the day you went away

  I want you back, I want you back,

  I want you back today.

  So let them think I'm not a mess,

  Or stronger than before

  But each day I don't miss you less -

  I miss you more and more.

  Martin Carter

  ****************

  The Sea of Life

  From the moment of birth

  We sail the Sea of Life

  Our parents, Captain and Mate

  Our Family, the crew

  Our Home, the ship in which

  We sail the Sea of Life

  Through childhood years

  The joys and tears

  We learn the ropes

  To help us cope

  As we sail the Sea of Life

 

  Time passes, we voyage on

  Meet new friends to sail along

  Some will sail away or fall astern

  But a few will remain true

  To the horizon of the Sea of Life

  With luck we meet The One

  Captain and Mate to become

  With our own ship to steer

  Navigate and clear

  The rocks and reefs

  Hidden in the Sea of Life

  Through balmy days

  Or wind whipped storm

  Our little ship can sail along

  Upon the deck we’re standing true

  Captain and Mate and maybe a little crew

  Sailing to meet whatever fate

  The Sea of Life can generate

  We know not when, soon or far

  As we sail the Sea under sun and star

  Our future tells a day to befall

  Of towering seas and mighty squall

  The day on which our plucky ship

  Is split

  Rudder, mast and sails all gone

  Taking our Mate across their horizon

  Beyond the Sea of Life

  At the surface our body clings

  To whatever aid the waves will bring

  But our soul has sunk far below

  A place we thought we’d never go

  To a place of pain and such despair

  There is no light, there is no air

  Down in the depths of grief

  Under the Sea of Life

  There we lie, time forgotten

  Amongst the mud upon the bottom

  So much effort to beat the pain

  Will we ever breathe again

  But up above our body’s stayed

  The link to soul battered and frayed

  A slender fragile line down which passes

  The air we need, a mixture of gases

  To let us adapt to our new surrounding

  Here in the depths of grief

  Down in the dark we cannot stay

  Our lost Mate wouldn’t want it that way

  Up we must stand and forward tread

  Like divers of old weighed down by lead

  But where is forward, for here alone

  There are no charts to takes us home

  But up above, our one true friend

  The body on which we must depend

  To man the pump and guide us true

  That slender lifeline leads us through

  The darkest waters of the Sea of Life

  By days and months and years

  The rise is slow with many tears

  Not up but along we go

  To find a place where light may show

  To shallower waters whereupon

  Body and soul can once more be one

  But now aboard a different ship

  Rebuilt in time bit by bit

  We sail to find a future changed

  Not on the chart, not one we planned

  On our voyage across the Sea of Life

  Through voyage travelled, events they pass

  To lose our Mate, amongst the worst

  Happy or sad our memories make

  To pass astern mid churning wake

  But not forgotten, always there

  Gentle reminders in the sun and sea and air

  And then the day as before

  Storm tossed sea, no sight of shore

  Rudder, mast and sails all gone

  Now take us over our horizon

  Beyond the Sea of Life

  But what is there? Perhaps we’ll find

  A little port, an island behind

  On the dock to welcome ashore

  Our Mate of course just as before

  Amid waving palms and tropical beaches

  No more storms can ever reach us

  Here to sit on sun warmed sand

  Together again hand in hand

  We gaze out over an azure blue sea

  The peaceful Ocean of Eternity

  Richard Hooper

  In memory of Andrea Hooper 1967-2011

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  On The Edge Of A Rain cloud

  There is a moment

  Pregnant with possibility

  Before the first rain drop

  Before the opening of the floodgates.

  I wait.

  Breathing in the moment

  Feeding the emotion.

  A single raindrop falls

  Onto my cheek.

  A single drop of water

  Runs from my eye.

  The eye that sees the rain cloud.

  The edge of the rain cloud.

  Knowing it will wash over me,

  I submit to the rain.

  I submit to the dark forces.

  Every drop will wet me more;

  My clothes, my hair, my skin.

  I might fall to the ground, completely soaked,

  Muddy and cold and seemingly alone.

  And I might lie there until

  The ground and I are one.

  I am this dirt and filth and grime.

  This is who I am.

  And yet ….

  I remember a moment

  When I first touched you.

  A moment, pregnant with possibility.

  Had I not touched you,

  Would I be here now?

  The rain washes my hand clean,

  And perhaps another’s hand will reach out.

  Do I dare to touch another’s hand?

  Can I stand on the edge of the rain cloud,

  And step instead into the sun?

  Jason Brooker

  ****************


  My journey

  What is this life?

  If not a game

  A game in which we all have a part to play

  A game of trials and tribulations

  A game where I fear the retaliation…

  I long for peace and serenity,

  A place of tranquillity

  Where I can be myself and there is no fear,

  Of anything else…

  Life…

  Could be perfect

  Life could be great

  Now it all feels like a big mistake

  I feel so alone

  This is my darkest hour

  I am monotone, passive

  I have no power

  I long for someone to understand me…

  Who could set me free

  But alas I despair

  Because nobody cares…

  God…

  God give me the strength

  To go on in this life…

  God help me to accept the things that I cannot change

  God give me courage to confront evil and do good

  God protect me from evil

  God give me the knowledge to better myself and to make a difference during my time here…

  God love me so I can learn to love myself.

  ****************

  Believing and Dreaming

  Dreaming is a road one takes

  Where there are no answers…

  Believing is the only hope one has

  When the light is shining

  But where is the light?

  Takes time to heal the broken hearts,

  the tears and the sadness

  But one never forgets the pain they had to go through…

  Nicky Sury

  (in memory of Jazz Sury 1977-2011)

  ****************

  What is Life?

  (in memory of Jazz Sury)

  What is life?

  From the start to the end is a test that is life…

  Travelling through our itinerary of time,

  We can only try…

  Looking back we may cry

  Bad times may come to mind

  But we need to do what we feel is right

  Reaching the end we can only hope we tried…

  As we approach the end of the road..

  We can hope we did our best in life

  What is Life? What is Life?

  It’s nothing without my beautiful Wife.

  Life…

  Life is full of endless dreams

  My thoughts are my own

  No one can erase them

  To do with them as I choose

  To let them run free

  I’m lost in the journey

  Travelling on this endless flight…

  With your strength I’m trying to set things right

  I think, my journey is with you in my tribe

  So cool relaxing and pure

  Trying to forget all the pain that I’ve caused

  Can you hear me?

  Now I’m on this journey

  To find myself again

  Look deep into my eyes,

  Or into my heart

  There you will fine your true love again.

  Nicky Sury

  ****************

  To my husband…

  (in memory of Jazz Sury)

  There are many kinds of love we

  Experience through life,

  They’re the special wings that lift us

  Through the pleasures and the strife

  And loving you has brought joy into my heart

  You’ve been the perfect husband right form the start

  That’s why now is the perfect time to say

  That the love we share grows stronger

  day-by-day.

  This love will last forever, no matter where we roam

  Whatever comes our way we will fight it and bring love back into our home.

  Nicky Sury

  ****************

  1-4-3 (I Love You) for Jazz

  I love you for so many reasons

  Because you know me so well

  Because your love gives me the strength I need each day

  Because the best place to be is in your arms

  I know I love you- just because you’re YOU

  Nicky Sury

  ****************

  Baby I’m You…

  I wish you could see

  That we are one and the same

  You and Me

  I crave your touch

  My heart aches I miss you so much

  I feel you’ve lost me

  That you don’t see me

  You can’t feel me…

  Trying to get close to you

  I drift further away from you…

  So you think that I’m strong and you’re feeling weak

  But we’re one and the same so you’re just

  As strong as me

  Cos Baby I’m you…

  Nicky Sury

  I can feel your pain… (for Jazz)

  I can feel your pain

  I know those days

  When I can see the pain in your face

  I can erase those pains

  No more loneliness staring you in the face

  Relax your mind no more need to fight

  I will treat you right

  I will show you the life

  That for us is right

  Do you want to go into the sunrise with me?

  Do you want to live life with me everyday?

  These are the words with me

  Let me fulfill your dreams and fantasies

  All I ask is that you stay with me

  I can feel your pain…

  Nicky Sury

  ****************

  To my dearest hubby…

  You are finally free from all the pain and suffering

  You are free to lay down your heavy head

  You are free to rest your tired aching body

  You are free from all your pressures

  You are free from your mind

  You are free from the worries of others

  May you be at peace and your soul go on

  I will carry you forever in my heart

  You will live on in our children

  All my love always

  Your Wife Nicky xxx

  Nicky Sury

  ****************

  Without You… (for Jazz)

  I hold your heart

  I weep for your tears

  My sadness my own, all my grief, all my fears

  This love hurts so deep and shadows my soul

  I love you and lost you and on I must go.

  So you left me behind

  Without You

  Alone.

  Time passed, paths crossed, lives changed

  My sky went black

  I stand at the side, waiting for you.

  Time passed.

  Without you

  I stand

  Alone

  Time Passed.

  Nicky Sury

  ****************

  For Kal…

  Another year has passed us by,

  It’s been so long since we said good bye,

  We carry this pain inside our hearts

  Our world as we knew it torn apart…

  All we can do is hope and pray,

  That we will meet again some day

  Until that day there is no resolution

  Instead all that’s left is hurt and confusion

  Each day, each year comes and goes

  Our hearts so heavy with woe

  All I want to say is I love you Bro

  More that you could ever have known…

  Nicky Sury

  (In memory of Kal Sian my baby Brother 1981-2005)

  ****************

  Gone is the sound of your laughter so clear

  Gone is the support you brought oh so near

  Gone is the warmth in the bed t
hat you made

  Gone is the peace that you brought as we laid

  Gone is the strength of your arms round me tight

  Gone is the happiness that gave me such light

  Gone is the comfort you brought to our child

  Gone is the ease she became so mild

  Gone is the love that held me so straight

  Gone are our chats we had until late

  Gone is the smell of you around the house

  Gone is your voice it’s as quiet as a mouse

  Gone are your clothes you left on the floor

  I still can't believe I will see you no more

  Tania Marie Langbridge

  ****************

  Too many tears

  A broken heart :'(

  l miss you Kev

  Now forced apart

  You had to go

  I had to stay

  My heart is shattered

  Since you went away

  My pillow sodden

  My face red raw

  I long to hold you

  But can't no more :'(

  What is my life?

  Without you near!!

  It's just not right!!

  You should be here!! }:'((

  But you had no choice

  It proved too much

  Did you hear my voice?

  Did you feel my touch?

  No final words

  No kiss goodbye

  I held your face

  Tried not to cry

  I have to try

  To carry on

  Though it is so hard

  Now that you're gone

  I love you Kev

  I always will

  I have to go now

  As my eyes re-fill :'((

  The days are getting shorter

  The nights are closing in

  The darkness getting stronger

  On the outside and within

  Holding onto sunshine

  Holding onto every smile

  The children's laughter

  The children's glee

  Keeps me going for a while

  The mask it slips

  At times its gone

  But time's a great healer

  And life must go on

  But its very hard without you here

  Gone is your warm smile

  Your voice I can't hear

  But in the eyes of our child

  I can see you live on

  With every beat of her heart

  I know you've not gone

  You're here with me now

  Though in not the same form